If there is one sure thing about love is that it comes with its own set of temptations. I have several loves: my pub, my wife and my kids. There are certain friends I love and feel close to but I have always been careful to maintain a hierarchy of love in order to make sure my priorities are kept in order. Tequila and her kiss had created a crisis for both of us. This strong a love has a way of moving past your barriers in the hierarchy of love and finding their place at a higher level perhaps they should be. However, there is often nothing you can do about this other than try to regain some sense of balance but try as you might once someone or something gains more of your love than it probably should, it is extremely difficult to avoid the temptation to express that love.
I should have known from my battles with the Seven Deadly Sins that their temptations were raw and primal for the most part but the door to all of them is subtle and often hidden. This lesson would now be put to the extreme test as The Kiss had revealed to both of us that our love for each other was genuine. It was also probably higher on the hierarchy of love than was reasonable. I mean there was so much wrong with it. I was married, she was my employee, her sisters worked for me too so if I hurt Tequila I might be out three waitresses. At the same time I felt I was a better fit with Tequila. I had met my wife on a business trip and we had fallen very hard in love with each other. We hardly knew each other when we got married and the truth was we are very different people and have very little in common. Tequila and I were definitely more alike than different. She cared about what I did and was involved with it. This was more than just the fact it was her job, she liked what I did and enjoyed talking about it. My wife and I talked about three things: money, our kids and work (mostly her work).
Despite this I feel love is in part a choice so I stayed with her and love her. The issue is the fact that I feel more of a soul mate connection to Tequila and more of a practical business arrangement in my marriage. Not a good situation from a standpoint of fidelity and I knew it. Many of my friends had lost their happy marriage because of the same situation. I did not want to lose mine. I also didn’t think I could keep my feeling for Tequila bottled up forever. Eventually, I would give into the temptation to kiss her again and then the rest of it would follow like an inevitable train of cars after the locomotive. I knew I wasn’t strong enough.
“Barkeep, if you keep sulking you’re going to scare away your customers.”
I looked up and it was Miss Wine. The red haired nudist was in all her naked glory as usual, she had discarded her normal red high heals for a couple flip flops which told me she had been outside in the hot tub. We had not spoken much since she had told me that my wife was not the greatest in her estimation. I had shut her down saying it was none of her business.
“Yeah, I suppose I should get back to work.”
“Or you should deal with the reason your sulking.”
“Not possible, its either work or drink a lot of theology”
“That bad huh? You know boss maybe you just need an adventure.”
“Miss Wine an adventure is the last thing I need right now. Wanting something different is how I go into this quandary.”
“So your in love with someone besides your wife”
I almost got angry but I valued Miss Wine’s opinion. She was a free spirit and free thinker.
“Listen, you are so obvious by the way you act. Your in love and it is a love that cannot be engaged fully so you are melancholy about the whole thing. I have seen this before.”
” Your brother?”
“Yep, he was in love with the sea but felt obligated to protect me so he never went to sea until we both kicked him out.”
‘Your stuck boss, but you need to do something or you will do something without thinking about it which will make it worse.”
I sighed deeply because she was right. I just didn’t have any good options and I needed to find one. It was then that Tequila walked in. Miss Wine looked back and forth between us and then shook her head.”
” I should have known it was the two of you in love. God, you’re both so pathetic right now. For the love of God both of you need to put your heads and hearts together and figure this out.”
She then turned on her heel and left the room leaving me and Tequila alone in the bar.
“She is right boss.”
“I know but if we do what needs to be done, I am going to lose a friend and I hate that.”
“Me to, so I decided to make it easy for you. I am going to leave for a bit, not forever but just a little while.”
“Tequila is that necessary?”
“Yes, it is the only wise choice. I don’t think it will end our friendship but it may give us space so passion does not rule reason.”
I frowned, “I think all that will do is delay the inevitable and it is like running away to me.”
“Maybe, but I need the time to think. I will wait until Sherry’s baby s born and then leave. You will need all of us to face the coming evil.”
“Well, that could still be some time. She is not due until early September.”
“I know but I think I can keep my feelings in check for a few weeks.”
Suddenly Pint woke up looking very agitated and growling.
“What is it boy?” I asked the beagle.
Then the doors to the pub exploded inward with a flash of light and a loud explosion and Tequila and I dived behind the bar. I grabbed my BFG and prayed as the sound of gunfire filled the air.
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