During the month of June my journal posts will be a little different as I am also trying to keep myself accountable as far as my sabbatical goals. The big problem with this right out of the gate is my dog. Gabriel is a 15-year-old beagle and he is on his last legs quite literally at times. I have made the decisions to put him down but it has not been an easy one. I credit Gabe’s steadfast loyalty for bringing me out of a few funks. His liver is failing him and so he eats a lot but is slowly starving to death as his body cannot process food very well. His back legs have become so atrophied that he must fall at least ten times a day. He is deaf, mostly blind and his bladder and bowel control is questionable. It is getting to be a real quality of life issue. Sometimes he just stands in a room and just shakes (pain I think). It is really sad to see. So my first few days of sabbatical have been filed with a kind of sadness. Tomorrow I have to set up a time next week for the vet to put him down.
It makes me feel like there is some sort of changing of the era of my life. Between an old beagle friend having to be put down, my schooling and facing diabetes (my first real health problem), my new-found interest in hiking there are just some many changes that combined make the world seem completely different to me. If that makes any sense. It is kind of the essence of why I took this sabbatical in the first place to get my feet back under me if nothing else.
The Soul Rundown:
Writing: Well the blogging has been normal but I wanted more than normal. I still am trying to find that breakthrough moment when I just want to write.
Reading: Some, but not as much as I hoped.
Family: Far more going on here than most would probably want with my son’s wedding in a couple of weeks.
Finances: Yeah, until the wedding is over money is just kind going to be spent.
Blessings and Cheers!!!