I played ‘hooky’ today. I know it seems out of character but even I do this at times because sometimes. Not that it was really hooky from my own church, everyone knew I was going to be gone. What I did do I was not in church at all for the first time in years. If someone were to ask me why? It is simply no longer restful for me to go in any church.
I was discussing this yesterday with a friend. I can’t go into any church anymore, because I go into ministry mode almost immediately whenever I walk in the door of the church. Any church. If it is mine the reason is obvious but when I am in someone else’s, the gear turn anyway although in a different direction. Is that the right way to do ministry? Is the sermon effective? Do the ministries of this church line up with their stated vision? etc. I step in a church and I am at work and this sabbatical I am going to avoid work at all costs.
That also said I have large misgivings about modern church ministry these days. Let me list them: 1) Being fake and having to put up false fronts, 2) Having to placate people who are not right with God in order to survive financially. 3) The aging congregations of churches across the board. 4) Apathy. etc. We have seen this list before in many books and many conferences. The issue is will things change. I have come to the painful conclusion that only a genuine revival from God will do so and I simply don’t see God acting yet. He I suspect is waiting for some move toward something on our part that demonstrates our faith and trust in him. Unfortunately, I think American Christianity has become too religious. We have become too religious.
The Spirit Rundown:
Leadership: I have a stack of stuff on my desk related to this as well that I need to finish this week. I want to go into my anniversary weekend, with nothing on my plate.
Ministry: Sabbatical – No Entry.
Celebration: All things are focused on my son’s wedding. In less than two weeks, he will marry the love of his life. I simply want to be for there for both of them.
Spiritual Disciplines: I have not spoken of it much but hiking has become in many ways my new form of both solitude, silence and meditation. It has been a wonderful breath of fresh air in this area.
Blessings an Cheers!!!